Monday, January 14, 2008


For most, the unknown is a source of stress. Uncertainty is felt as a lack of control, and this is a negative emotion. But I think I'm a bit odd in this regard. Perhaps because I do not believe in the myth of control. Perhaps because I know life will never truly be certain. Regardless of why, when I feel great uncertainty in my life, such as I have now, I tend to thrive off of it. I'm excited, not worried, about all the changes. I'm feeling challenged, rather than stressed, by all the unknowns.

In the next two weeks I'm travelling on three trips. Or is it four? I'm teaching a training course in Denmark right after a meeting in Germany. Or am I? Half the work and travel plans are still not confirmed. And the rest are vague enough as to be uncertain anyway.

And life outside of work has taken on a strange feel. I've got high hopes for a personal situation that is bound to cause changes. Although the chances of heartbreak are far greater than of happiness, I'm still buzzing with positive energy.

And energy seems to be the crux of it all. Uncertainty and change are like types of energy floating around. Some times life has more, some times less. But I think, maybe, just perhaps, I believe, that this is useful energy. That it can be tapped and harnessed. That in times of change, our reactions can be as positive or negative as we choose them to be. So in this turbulent time, I'm choosing to be positive.


quilly said...

We share a lot of the same traits, Morgan. For me uncertainty is a challenge, and I love challenges.

Theresa said...

Good for you. I like a challenge, but I don't much like uncertainty, especially when it has to do with important aspects of my life. In any case, I hope things turn out well. :)

I Dive At Night said...

Quilly, I thought we might. :-)

Theresa, I always wish I could say there was less uncertainty. In the last 24hrs, however, it's all doubled. ;-)

Minka said...

teh roller coaster of life means you are living it. It is very easy to create certainty. Get unemployed, buy a six pack of beer and slump down infront of your TV...and you can be set.
I like your version way better.

I Dive At Night said...

Minka, as I prepare to leave the house for the first of many trips, your words bring me strength. Thank you!

I hope to have time/access to post tonight from Hamburg. Essen on Sunday.

Doug said...

Certainty is for the deceased too ugly and malodorous to bring worms.

Enjoy, brother

I Dive At Night said...

Doug, thanks, I shall! But uhm, wouldn't it be nice to just once have a choice? I think so.